desire and courage

Why is my website not a big hit, why is it at the bottom of every rating, why don't i write funny shit, stuff to cause people to overlook their pain and suffering...?

Well, my friend, the answer is always the same, you cannot be someone else, these messages, no matter how undesirable you think they might be, are the very reason why you are here.

I know my first attempts at writing were more politically and socially correct,  but daily events prove them to be a waste of time, while what good is laughing or profiting your way to hell? Why do we prefer being wealthy over being healthy? Does wealth require more courage than health? Which is the greater priority?

At different stages of my life, I had a strong desire to be like or accepted by others. Really tried hard but it never worked and I was always the blame, ending with a substitute, I could not even use. And being surrounded by people who actually sabotaged themselves, out of fear of the risk involved in striving for their divine purpose. People too lazy, too depressed to get up off their asses and clean up their own rooms, neighborhoods...

So, got tired of beating myself on the head and out of fear, I started writing exactly what I was experiencing, which seemed just the opposite of what was being what others would want you to believe. Could not figure why or how people enjoy living a life of betrayal and deceit, and not try to make it better? Who would not want to fix the problem? And you are still living in fear.

The voice also said, loud and clear, tell the truth and this truth is for "your own understanding"! This voice was so clear to me, it was scary, so now, I am literally afraid to write anything I do not believe to be truth. And there were many other voices, but most of all, the voice of my father and the way I write is the exact voice in which he spoke.

These voices coupled with my desire to contribute as much as I can to the world in which I live, gave me the desire and courage to lead this lonely life of writing my understanding of what's going on. All the personal growth, new skill I have learned, cultivated, refined, I am a new person, I feel so good about it and hope you can see it.

(((your inner voice.com)))